So i had some inspiration finally and was able to write some more poems...

its been so long that it almost feels strange but i was so estactic to write.

the first poem I Love you? \ was inspired by and her poem here When you're not Here [link]

and the other Rival was inspired with the idea of someone who told me that i could never beat this other girl. so it based on track really

and thats about it!

So i finished my first year of school.
the hardest thing i've ever done was be away form hom efor so long. August all the way up to may.
and as it is i'm still in the USA. I'm terribly homesick. but i gotta keep going forward i suppose.

Alot of things have been bothering me down here.
I've let alot of things get to me. and I honestly can't say i won't be happier until i'm home in my house wether i'm bored out of my mind or not. Being home is all i need.

*sighs*

I've written a somewhat sort of poem called ManHood

Otherwise not much more to update here. I'm back on DA yes. hah. i think i needed a long break. I won't be here as often but i'll be sure to try and get around to commenting if i can.


Otherwise i hope everythign is good with everyone...
if you're readin gthis at all lol

so.....

i'm still alive i assure you.
i got caught up in the wonderful yet awful world of university.
my writing stop.
inspiration stoped.
all hope for me was lost.

until.....

well that will remain unknown mainly because its semi unknown to me LOl

but i have been recently thinking about DA. and Thinkign back to even elfwood and of Dennis, Henrik, Jess, John and other people (though mainly them cause they're cool) and i felt sad because i've disappeared for months really without much of a trace.

and since i have written actually two new poems i also felt that i should make a reappearance on DA. I've miss the wonderful creations of my friends and this community. I've been just soo busy with: 1. Being lazy. 2. Track and finally competing after my injury 3. school and homework and 4. making new friends.

Last semster was the worst. too much stuff went on. I'm finally healed 1. my back and 2 most of my truama has been delt with and pushed to the back of my mind and i'm free again.

so!

hopefully no ones completely forgotten me. and hopefully we'll see my return to DA and the world of literature and art.

This poem was written because while i was here i guess i placed the wrong trust in the wrong person.

some things happened. that i wish not repeat. but i suppose i'm forever scarred and i didn't make the right decisions. No one will probably understand the poem or its true and inteneded meanings. becaus ei dint want to write somethign that would detail it.

but i mean this helps to get it out of my system and helps with my own eternal peace.

Sooooo Its September 28th and I've been in the USA now for almost a month and a half maybe???


I duno I'm here in MIchigan and I'm having fun although i have been homesick a few times i'm doing WAAAAY bettter

tracks also started and its a killer but i knew it would be like that and i'm really happy it is. I feel like that once this is done i'll be so much stronger and faster. and that I feel like I love running again so much more then i ever have been before.

Its tough we do insane workouts but its good and schools going good too. Its not hard of a transition but some thing are different and take some getting used to but so far i'm doing good.

and i'm really sad I miss everyone here at deviantart if they even remember me anymore lol but i really want to start getting back into this artsy mode again.. i just need to somehow get some programs or get writing.. damn school work is getting in my way lol

but I'll be back soon that i'm sure of. I think i just needed a break but i'm looking forward to creating art once more

HOPE EVERYONE IS DOING GOOD AND I MISS YOU ALL